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Remember when I said that I would be able to see you peeps just about all the time everyday? Yeah, forget about it. In an effort to make me and my siblings less attached to the internet, our mom had the internet for wireless devices have a set time that they can get on or off. And if that doesn't sound bad, she now monitors when the I-Phones are in AND out of use by putting a in Lock-Mode, therefore rendering them unusable for anything she finds unnecessary. While I don't really blame her for taking such measures, I can feel the darker side of me beginning to take over again. I just hope I don't unnecessarily hurt someone in a way that will make them hate me or themselves.
*sigh* Well, looks like I'm spending another long period of time just watching you peeps as you post stuff and rarely commenting again... I'm really just getting sick of me today... 'Chia... -.-
*sigh* Well, looks like I'm spending another long period of time just watching you peeps as you post stuff and rarely commenting again... I'm really just getting sick of me today... 'Chia... -.-
Gone so Long
Sorry for not being around lately... The past year has been.... “difficult” to say the least... My interests are constantly wandering... My old phone’s screen broke so I had to wait for a new one... My new phone won’t let me boot up hotspot... I keep starting new projects before losing interest or hitting road blocks... and to top it all off, I have been more tired and sad lately... Sleeping helps, but other days I’m also hit by insomnia.
Funny, isn’t it...? ;w;
Walking Contradiction
I don't want to live
(I don't want to die)
I want to be there for everyone
(I want to be there for no one)
I want to be the one they depend on
(I don't want them to depend on me)
I want to be here in the light
(I want to be here in the dark)
I am only human
(I am only human)
But more than anything
(Anything at all)
I just want to be
(Me)
Down the Rabbit Hole
Down
Down
Down
Down the rabbit hole went Alice
Down
Down
Down
Down went her hopes
Down
Down
Down
Down went her dreams
Down
Down
Below
There's nothing but walls around her
Deep
Dark
Alone
The pain has come again
Along with her silent screams
Down
If I Disappeared
Would anyone care?
Would anyone miss me?
Would they even notice?
All I seem to do
Is cause everyone problems
To hurt the ones I care about
No matter how much I try not to
When I try to fix something
When I try to fix who I am
I get hurt
More and more
It hurts
It hurts
I try not to think about it
I try to make it go away
But every time
I think I'm finally getting better
I think I finally get passed the pain
It grabs me
It pulls me back
It surrounds me
It oppresses me
It strangles me
And I fall even deeper
Deeper, deeper, deeper
Down, down, down
Into the abyss below
And I am forced to try and crawl o
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That is a real shame I hope these measures don't last too long